by Jack » Sat 05 Jan 2008, 19:27:29
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')I should be sad, freaked out, worried for people, including myself, and how do I feel-- Like I've just taken a bracing cold shower, exhilerated....alive!
How sick in the head am I?
You're not sick; rather, you are entirely normal.
The feeling you describe consists of two components.
1) The adrenalin rush of danger. You have had a small dose. You will probably experience bigger doses. In this instance, bigger is better - if you survive.
2) The satisfaction of finding that you have prepared yourself for events that others are blind to. As matters develop, the risks and stakes grow larger, which augments condition (1) above.
When your life hangs by a thread, and a single mistake could lose everything - then (and only then) will you experience being fully alive.
