Whats'a matter Stu, don't you like a challenge?
Sometimes I try to look at it as an all-in-one entertainment package - theres practical handy stuff to do, metaphysical conundrums to muse, personal conflicts & communication problems to navigate, and plain simple relearning stuff you thought you already knew. Nobody is bored, right? Frantic, frustrated, fedup maybe, but bored, no.
If this was easy it wouldn't be real life. Having engaged with reality, all the substitutes (sport, religion, herd politics, mass media..) just wont cut it.
Remember to pat yourself on the back for having made it this far, give yourself a holiday even, but don't pretend that going back to being another automaton (who believes whatever is easiest) is any kind of choice. You'd have to drug or deaden important parts of yourself, and it would never be worth it, never provide you or those around you with peace. What did Morpheus say about the red pill? 'I only promised you the truth' - thats all we can ask of the world around us, the rest is about, and up to, us.
For me 'right livelihood' still provides a usable meta-plan, i just have to keep making up each days path one/a few steps at a time. Given our rapidly evolving circumstances, i don't think theres any better singular viable plan out there.
(hope my philosophising not too painful, is well intentioned, seemed appropriate)