Lorenzo! Beauty!!!
I tied my brain in a knot trying to figure out how to respond, to your Catholic persona. I was going to express sympathy and empathy for some of your anti-modern ideas, and then I was going to try to point you in the Sufi direction, if you needed an emotionally charged, satisfying but archaic experience. Man, you had me worried.
There's nothing remotely loving about the institutional hierarchic players within the Catholic church. They are one of the strongest focal points of evil, in the world. They leave a trail of moral slime wherever they've been, preaching passivity to indigineous people, as their lands are stolen, their women raped and their children killed by colonizing forces. They are NEVER on the compassionate side of the divide. They have supported fascism, hidden pedophilia, withheld criticism of the Nazis during the holocaust, and then helped shelter SS from prosecution by being active participants in the intelligence agencies, Project Paperclip, in the post war period.
And people have the nerve to turn to this "higher moral authority" because of STD's? The cardinals surrounding the pope are gonnhorhea in human form. The pope, as a figurehead, was chosen because he was anti-Communist and therefore could be counted on to default to a pro-fascist stance that supported the status quo. He, no doubt, has some fabulous characteristics as a human being, but firing all of the priests who were encouraging the peasants to stand up for themselves in Latin America, in the seventies, eighties and early nineties, calls the entirety of his personality and his personal cosmology into question.
Some of the most loving people I know are Catholics, and strong ones, but they all share something in common. Their desire to prostate themselves before a diety, golden retriever style, outweighs their drive for justice, reason and greater compassion. Their kindness, then, is entirely compromised. These are the type of people who allowed their kids to have sleepovers with priests, without any discomfort. Had they not been so emotionall all accepting and unquestioning, much of the abuse wouldn't have happened.
God, gave us scepticism, reason, logic, to counter blind emotionalism. I suggest "good" Catholics use it.