by gampy » Fri 23 May 2008, 04:18:17
Consumerism.
I hate that word, and I hate being called a consumer. Mind you, I do consume things, like food, occasional clothing, beer, tobacco, etc.
I want to write a big essay, or rant, that talks about how modern society is so hollow, so vacant, so bereft of anything wholesome or good.
When I bike to work, I see all the cars, all the strip mall businesses, all the poor city planning, all the fucking concrete. Makes me sick.
I despise the fucking shops that sell useless shit. I hate fucking telemarketers, and marketing campaigns (one and the same).
Consume. Consumer. It means nothing except buy more oil, buy more crap, buy more shit to keep lackeys like me in service sector jobs. And huge profits for the folks who run these fucking franchises.
I feel fucking trapped. Trapped in this fucking hamster wheel.
I have a big fantasy of moving out to my folks place and making a self sufficient lifestyle, but I have been a city rat for too long.
I don't know if I could make a go of it for me and my folks. Too soft, too used to modern, G-7 lifestyle.
The Mennonites, the Amish, the Bedouin, Kalahari Bushmen, and others have my complete and utter respect. I really believe they have the answer, and the skills.
I am atheist, but I would be willing to bow my head to their god, if they would have me , and teach me how to live closer to nature(god?). I would seriously submit to their ways, if it meant learning, and loving nature, and god.
I wonder if they take converts, or only their offspring.