by BigTex » Sun 09 Mar 2008, 00:35:06
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I was thinking similarly. The request is impossible to answer. It's all from within.
I don't have the answers, but I would like to comment on the idea that there is this hopelessly cold absolute reality and enlightenment consists of waking up to this utter desolation and somehow coming to terms with it.
That place of desolation is no more real than the comfortable delusion you leave behind. It's all ultimately just an
interpretation of what is going on around you. You stand around a dead body and one person sees an angel ascending and another person sees a piece of meat beginning to rot. Which one is "real"? Who knows and who cares? Each experience is utterly real to the person experiencing it. I don't buy the MATRIX kind of thing, where some people are sleepwalking and others are awake. We are all sleepwalking and dreaming a different dream. It's arrogance that makes us think we are awake while everyone else is asleep. I feel it often, but I still think it's arrogance.
To put a point on what I am saying, though, the thing that I have learned (and Eastbay and I were talking about this down at Party headquarters the other day) is that the problem people have is imagining that they are owed something in life. This feeling of entitlement contributes to their distorted delusions and leads inevitably to disappointment--if they exceed their goals they feel guilt that they were fortunate while so many others weren't; if they don't reach their goals they feel like a failure.
Some of the most successful people I have known didn't see themselves as succesful, and I realized that the feeling they had of always being on the verge of failure drove them, but they never actually felt succesful, they just hoped to evade failure for one more day. Not a happy life, in my view.
OTOH, if you treat EVERYTHING in life with gratitude, always comparing it to NOTHING as opposed to comparing it to perfection, suddenly life makes more sense. There is less need for protective delusions. Would I rather be alive and suffering or have never existed at all? Looking at life in that way, the worst suffering can become bearable, and if it remains unbearable the decision to die can at least be an informed one (I'm think someone with a terminal illness, for example).
I think people often arrive at utter despair and imagine they have reached some kind of FULL REALITY experience, and yet when I have felt that way and it passed, I realized that was just another
interpretation of what was going on around me.
The only dogma in my views on enlightenment are that kindness and humility seem to be the X and Y axis, and the more of those things I see in a person the closer to enlightenment I think they are.
That's just my version of truth today. I just wanted to throw something a little warmer out there than the idea that there is this utter cosmic emptiness and we are separated from it by a thread. I think we are separated from it by whatever we decide and if we choose to embrace it that can be an awful or amazing experience. Again, we decide. We're the ones who made up the whole cosmic emptiness idea in the first place.
What's "real" when you're dead?