by threadbear » Wed 16 Jan 2008, 04:07:39
As far as life after death and matters of the spirit, PMS. Though I thought I had an "agnostic stance, I realized that the sub conscious mind, at least my subconscious, divided things very neatly into the categories of true and false, and I was actually deluding myself by thinking I was an agnostic. I was actually, processing information about anything esoteric or spiritual through the, "it is false", or atheism. Furthermore, I realized that it didn't matter how hard I tried to retain a middle ground, my subconscious HAD to process this info, one of two ways. It seemed to be a hard wiring problem.
So I kind of tricked my subconscious, by approaching it logically. I thought, processing the esoteric, as if it's all false, in the absence of unequivocal solid proof that it actually IS false, is no more logical than the other stance. In that case, it becomes a matter of choice. So I chose the other side, almost for the purpose of argument. Believe me, this was no epiphany. It was a purely mental exercise.
But an interesting thing happened when I chose the alternative YES category over the no. I allowed myself to look at an entire body of knowledge that I would not have even bothered looking at before. And not religious work, necessarily, but information that seemed as scientifically rigorous as anything else I'd seen. That seemed to be the key. I gained understanding of the tricks of the subconscious, made a deliberate choice to be receptive to looking at information, that would otherwise repel me.