by FreakOil » Tue 04 Dec 2007, 08:03:35
$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('eastbay', 'I') don't usually spend much time on this section, but last night something happened and it made me decide to mention it somewhere where there might be a few who understood it.
I had a nightmare last night. I woke up in the middle of the night in a terrible fright and it was as vivid as any I've ever had. I was driving along in a VW beetle with my 11 yr old daughter and everything was good. I looked at the instruments and noticed it was time to gas up. We pulled in to the first station we saw and gas was $8.00/ gallon for regular. I asked the attendant what was up with the price and he said to me, "what's the matter with you? Don't you read the papers? The country's out of gas everywhere!" I quickly put in 10 gallons, paid the guy, and drove off.
Almost immediately I saw another gas station along the road with the posted price of $15.00/ gallon. I pulled in there and decided to get as much cash from my debit card as I could and buy food with it because bread was $50.00 a loaf and I decided I better get as much food as I could because it would soon run out. Well, the cash machine wouldn't give any cash. I was out of $$. I quickly drove off and turned to my daughter and said, "remember what I've been saying for the past few years about oil and all that?" She replied, "yes." "Well", I told her, "that time is here now so we better get as far away from the city as we can before it's too late."
I then quickly sat up in bed and I was surprised to see my daughter standing in the room staring out the window into the night's darkness. I said hello to her and she replied that she just had a terrible nightmare, but couldn't remember the details.
That was so weird and shocking.
I still remember the details of mine including how helpless, frightened, and totally unable to care for us I felt.
Anyone else have horrible dreams about this looming disaster???
If there's another thread about PO dreams especially nightmares please merge. I didn't take time to scan all the threads.
I read an interesting theory about dreams from the European Therapy Studies Institute. I cannot say with any certainty that this theory is correct, but it helped me overcome a minor bout with "depression" and oversleeping I had a while back. (I opted NOT to be diagnosed with depression as if I had a disease and take loads of Prozac.) Anyway, here's a synopsis:
Ruminating on unpleasant subjects (Peak Oil) causes us to worry, and we become aroused, negatively, believing that something bad is going to happen. Yet we can't or don't
do anything about it, so we go to sleep with unresolved emotions. Dreams are a way of closing that emotional "loop."
The mind creates scenarios where something is happening, something bad in the case of nightmares. Those scenarios are created through sights, sounds and smells that we've stored in our memory, even sights and sounds that we've only imagined. We then "act" our way through the dream, doing something to close the emotional loop.
We are not always successful. Sometimes the nightmare wakes us up. Other times, sleep drags on while you try to "act through" the scenario in your dreams, while never actually finishing the task, so to speak. In those cases, you never actually close the emotional loop. You carry the negative emotion through the next day, the next night, the next day, etc. This is the beginning of anxiety - emotional stress that never goes away.
I also believe that it may be impossible to dream through some scenarios because you are emotionally aroused by something unresolvable, an ontological problem like death, for example.
I used this knowledge to improve my psychological well being. I got into the habit of never thinking about a problem without doing something to deal with that problem before I go to bed. Peak Oil is on my mind in a major way, just like the rest of you. Before I go to bed, I do something really simple like think about my financial plan and how well I'm saving - or how I could save better - just to keep things positive and stay active, rather than let Peak Oil get the best of me psychologically.
One poster earlier suggested that you stop visiting Peakoil.com. I think that would be a mistake. Do not give into escapism. I think the only way to really rid yourself of anxiety - and bad dreams - is to tackle the problem head on, do something positive to prep every day. Do not stop visiting this site. Stay engaged. Perhaps you should check out the preps section to read what positive things people are doing to prepare for the storm.
Also, it might help to remember that Peak Oil does not mean that you will die off. This is not an unresolvable problem, at least not for you personally. And the good things in life don't depend on oil supplies. Love, friendship, family - this is what matters. Keep it together for your daughter's sake.
And don't stop prepping!
(Note: I'm sorry if I sound "preachy" in this post. I'm actually far behind on my preps.)