by Narz » Fri 10 Aug 2007, 04:12:43
$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('Baldwin', 'Y')es, I am cynical.
Just a little bit.
Being willfully ignorant is not happiness. Not really. People living a lie generally know it and if you know you're living a lie you can't be truly, truly happy.
Just my opinion. But when I accept all that is to the best of my ability, don't close my eyes to it but make a plan, knowing things could go wrong but damnit, at least I'm doing something. Then I'm generally alot happier than if I'm just kicking back killing time with a mindless pursuit.
I think what most people consider happiness is really not all that great. I may be uncomfortably, irritable (though I'm friendly in person and do not let this show) and often disatisfied feeling, I do appreciate life, I try even to appreciate my pain and issues for they help me grow. When I'm really happy I feel really damn good. I don't try to block out the static in the background or forget I have a long way to go, I try to just be happy with the present moment, for where I am. I see my mind spinning hopeful dreams (that never quite go according to plan) about the future and I accept that too.
Intensity of emotion is IMO, more important than some base level of happiness which is really just a couple steps over boredom and a few more above loneliness and ultimately desperation.
I've gone thru many years of severe depression and will never go back. This alone makes even my unhappy moments appreciatable.
I like the Zen philosophy. See the perfection is everything.