by gpws » Thu 12 Apr 2007, 21:05:48
$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('RonMN', 'I') get what you are saying also...I just wish i could find the words...
When I was very young (4 or 5) I had a major mental delema over whther or not reality was real...or was it all a figment of my imagination?
Now being 4 or 5 I didn't have the vocabulary to express this idea...so I figured it out for myself.
I finaly thought (after long debate with myself) that IF reality wasn't real...there was a reason i shouldn't know about it (yet).
The adult Ronald has never re-addresed that question...
Maybe I should...(best way i can put it into words at this moment).
Well is the earth flat or round? Depends on your definition of 'flatness'. When you average it out, the earth is flatter than a sheet of paper on your desk, if you consider the paper flat then why not the earth?
Is reality 'real'? What is your definition of reality and of real?
Even 'illusions' exists within the context of the larger all encompassing 'reality', so then isn't everything (even white lies) 'real'? How could they NOT be? Overwise they won't exis
It's not all about me. In fact it's not about me at all. This very moment truth, the objective existential truth and reality of it all exists without the need of anyone or anything experiencing it, admiring it, debating it, discovering, inventing, analyzing, or writing about it. I am content and consoled in knowing that 'IT' exists independent of my ever 'discovering' or 'formulating' a theory of everything or ultimate model of reality, indeed truth and reality is independent and totally regardless of my very existence itself!
No matter how bad I fail, perfection is still and always perfect. I am content in that fact.
Yet even the 'contentedness' I receive from knowing that very fact above isn't important at all. It just isn't about 'ME' or
'mine' at all!
And yet I can't help but wonder why the illusion of 'I' even exists at all in the first place!! Sure the ego is 'bad' and false, yet 'it' is
still 'something' is it not? Even an illusion is still 'something' rather than 'no-thing'. The ego/illusion is an unique entity with a special distinction, but why does the ego exists? If there is a difference between illusion and reality (and by making such a distinction as 'illusion' and 'reality' we readily concede there must be a categorical difference between the two) then illusion must abide and reside within the larger more encompassing reality, for surely it would be nonsensical to presume reality could reside within illusion!
If illusion resides within reality, then what is the purpose of such an illusion? How can imperfection hide in perfection unless what we assume to be imperfect was actually perfect? But if that was the case, then our improper assumption of the way things are, isn't THAT an imperfection then? So either way imperfection exists within perfection!?!?
>CONTRADICTION!!
If I was an angel I would have no problems at all. If I was an animal I'd live and die free. But I am a human, forever stuck between both world, cursed by both worlds, and yet never able to truly call either home. Absolution and deliverance infinitely beyond my grasps.
Why this hide and go seek? Why this quantum super-positional weaving in and out of existence of ourselves?
It's about me but yet its not. It's not about me but yet here I am. Did illusion create itself out of the thing air by bootstrapping itself from the ground of reality? Or is there a purpose to illusions existence?
For if the 'I' is a mere illusion and not real, then surely it wasn't 'I' that chose to be born, and it wasn't 'I' that chose to live this life and experience this 'illusion' and it wasn't 'I' that is thinking this thought! 'I' am not responsible for misidentifying with the illusion, it was forced upon me by a sadistic and cruel 'creator'/universe!
And yet here I am. Since birth everything and everyone I have known has taught me to think that 'I' was real and that the ego was 'good'. And now I am told differently and blamed for not doing was was right in the first place. Well why the hell isn't the universe right in the first place and leave no room for illusion in the first place then??? If illusion isn't real then why does it (the illusion itself) exist!
I am, and yet I am not. Existence exists and yet it doesn't really. "IT" IS, and yet "IT" can never be known. What a cruel joke this all is!
It would seem we have been set up from the beginning to fail miserably and then all the blame was unjustly put on us!
Maybe the ultimate reality simply IS CONTRADICTION ITSELF! Perhaps it is the PARADOX that is responsible for the existence and indeed of all things we see in this omnium multiverse and totality of existence.
Here are the possible combinations:
1. nothing exists
2. something exists
3. nothing exists && something exists (= to !(nothing exists) && !(something exists))
4. 1&2&3 !!!
5. NONE OF THE ABOVE
6. *ALL* of the above (1-5&/6)
By assuming the inherent nature of existence is contradictory and IS PARADOX itself then we can come to understand why our own minds are so convoluted and turmoiled. We can understand why human race is so f-cked up. We (our inner minds and universe) reflects and mirror the larger truth of the larger paradoxical universe OUT THERE!
And surprisingly by finally accepting faults and imperfections as they are instead of hopelessly trying in vain to search for a theory of perfection that just isn't there, by accepting and realizing PARADOX and CONTRACTION as the ground zero base of all existence and being-ness we solve all the 'problems' and become 'perfect' again. What a paradox indeed!