by qwerty » Fri 22 Sep 2006, 16:11:53
In another dream I dreamt I meet my soul mate. It was a beautiful love of epic proportions. I forgot who ‘I’ in ‘real life’ was and the only ‘I’ that existed was the universal self-identity and experience of consciousness and awareness of what it is like to be ‘me’ the individual. It was the same ‘I’ that all beings and creatures everywhere shared. I couldn’t see her face but I felt her nearness and presence. It was the most perfect love I have ever felt, it was a communion between my higher self, the higher ‘I’ with the higher ‘her’. It felt like we were on top, with everything else below us. Here time didn’t exist and didn’t matter, space was a unnecessary concept, it felt like everything and nothing at the same time, an infinite now, and an eternity in a moment.
I felt happy yet sad at once, it was bittersweet feeling of finally coming ‘home’ after an epic journey of hide and seek. I had left an eternity earlier yet now it seemed like just a second had passed. Even though I was back, I was full of reminiscence and forlorn nostalgia of the divine love we shared of long long ago.
And then I remembered it was all a game we decided to play with each other. But the new ‘I’ that did the remembering wasn’t the limited individual ‘I’, it was the highest order ‘I’ that oversaw all things and was a participant in all things. It’s miraculous that once ones boundary of ‘self-identity’ shifts in perspective the essences of ones being is becomes the object of ones newfound awareness. We are who we are because our localized awareness that is confined to an individual physical body defines what we are. When my consciousness expanded to include all human males, immediately I know that all along I was not simply this one individual person, but the real ‘I’, the one that has been hidden all along was this ONE male being, loving this ONE female being. And for a moment in that dream I really identified with him, I WAS him, the one and only male, with the one and only female. Meanwhile I knew that the individual I back in real life was nothing but one of the billions of instances of the greater me that was divided and spit apart with variations to make each individual ‘male’ unique. And likewise the greater her, in order to experience an almost infinite variation of life, love, fun, and hurt that we wanted to learn, give and take from each other, she needed to temporarily split herself into a zillion different mini-sub hers each different and unique in ‘her’ own way, and together ‘we’ the collective of human males and females throughout the eons would ‘experience’ each other, every possible facet of each other, every face, every unique variation, played out over and over again throughout the many ages. We were role playing with ourselves in every possible way. We wanted to explore every nook and cranny, to constantly refresh and renew the landscape, constantly experience and re-experience the newness of the first time, thousandths time, infinith time.
Ands that how we interacted with each other, though the proxy of billions of individual sub-us’s that interacted with each other on an ordinary daily basis.
And then for a moment everything made sense. There are no, and there never was any other ‘woman’, or any other ‘man’. Seen in that new light, infidelity jealousy envy marriage and divorce, death and birth, none of these mattered because none of these concepts were ‘real’. They simply didn’t exist, it was an illusion necessary to keep order and individuality while the two of us played the game. Once the game ended the rules were put away.
Everything we did, no matter how good or hideous, we did to ourselves. The concept of cruelty didn’t exist once I realized we were just doing this to ourselves to experience how it would feel.
And in that moment I realized, everything truly is perfect.
Everything is ONE.
One is infinity.
Infinity is Zero.
One, Infinity, zero, infinity, one, imaginary, real, complex, simple, zero, infinity, one.
I think my brain is overload.
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