I'm pretty sure waffling is normal for us POilers, but just being a POiler makes you a very very itty bitty minority. Soooo... you arent normal.
Anyway, welcome to the forum. There are a lot of good people here. Take everything with a grain of salt, and apply what you can. Most people are here to help. In my 3 months of lurking and posting i've only bumped into a few trolls.
My suggestion (which will most likley change sometime within the next hour

stupid waffling), is to do what makes you happy. If your cubicle job is not working, change now.
Unless you are stuck in the system (due to high loans or other situaitions), in which case make the best of the situation now, realize its not always going to be that way, and try to visualize what you can/will do in every PO scenario you can imagine; from armagedon to holy crapola a magic fairy/alien/God Himself just came down and fixed it all.
[B]Note:[/] I've found that these visual excersises while making me feel better about my situation 75% of the time. Send me into anxiety mode sometimes.
Anyway welcome again.