Hmmmm....
I want to use my own "first post topic" to apologize.
I'm an obsessive perfectionist as i like to call myself and because of that i usually don't write much on forums. Speaking in real life is much easier for me then writing, because when i make a mistake in a conversation i am not able to correct myself in advance.
I have written many many posts in reaction to topics around here without posting it, simply because i didn't consider my own texts perfect enough. I am never happy about my own posts. Never!
There are many things i have to say and i think i sometimes have a tiny little bit to contribute now and then. When i feel strong and confident enough i press the "submit" button, but in most cases i write, write and write without ever pressing that button.
I'm reading this forum for a few years and this is the only place filled with people that are able to understand my thoughts about the world. For some weird reason nobody in the "real world" i know is able to even grasp the basics of peak oil and all other things that are discussed on this forum.
I'm actually saying this in the wrong way; nobody i know is able to grasp the basics of your ideas. This is because i didn't know about peak oil and many other problems in the world before visiting this forum.
The reason i'm writing this is at first to apologize for my future posts. I am not a smart person. Some say that i am, but i know i am not. Even the most irritating and unintelligent poster around here makes arguments i wouldn't even consider. I have learned many things by simply reading this forum. By reading very intelligent posts and even by reading very dumb posts.
Uhhh...
To repeat myself; i am not a smart person. I never finished any formal education and i do not understand math, physics, history, chemistry, biology and my knowledge of the English language is very limited. Whatever i know is "self-thought". That's the only thing i'm proud of; i am not influenced by anything, i am completely free in my mind and every single thought i have is made by me personally.
I'm probably writing more then you want to read, so i'm going to stop writing here. From now on i'm going to attempt to stop being a perfectionist and write a little bit more. This means that i'm going to write what i think. This also means that sometimes i sound like a dumb ass and on rare occasions i say something that's intelligent. Forgive me for that.
A few quotes from myself that i like to share:
"I read thousand posts, a hundred books and then i finally write one sentence without anyone knowing about it."
"I believe nothing, i know nothing and at the same time i believe everything and i know it all."
"When you're not able to explain something to a child you do not understand it."
"Nobody understand me! *whining* Because i don't explain myself."
Ugh...i hate writing! I'm afraid for that "submit" button.
Have fun!
Roach
As an obsessive perfectionist it is not unusual for me to spend an hour writing and re-writing a single sentence. When abandoning perfection i ask you to judge me on my ideas, not on my words.