So I'm just starting to learn about peak oil, and while I'm all for learning sustainable farming techniques and so on, my concern is this: I rely on certain medications to keep me going (alive) -- medications that plants and herbs can't replace.
And now I'm starting to wonder -- if de-industrialization really is just around the corner, then why even bother getting prepared? I can help spread the word, contribute to the efforts of others attempting to prepare, but it seems there's little point in perparing *myself* to live beyond the industrialization threshold. Truth be told, a part of me is thinking that I'll wait until the first real crisis hits then end it all myself -- it would be better than dying slowly and painfully.
Needless to say, this is depressing and panicking the hell out of me. I don't want to sound selfish, but as far as my life is concerned, I don't see any possibility of a "silver lining" of relocalized communal living in my future. Should I be as depressed and panicked as I am? Any thoughts/advice?
Thank you in advance.





