[NEOPO]

I love you more then words are able to define.
This is my attempt to speak to you, now that we will never speak again in this world.

Seek the truth to all we ever pondered and all we could never imagine.
Have no fear, trust that we will meet again and that I will find you no matter where you may be.

Lo, there do I see my father
Lo, there do I see my mother and my sisters and my brothers
Lo, there do I see the line of my people back to the beginning
Lo, they do call to me
They bid me take my place among them in the Halls of Valhalla
Where the brave may live.
Forever.

[FourOfSwords]

NEOPO, is it a coincedence that you're a fan of The Thirteen Warrior?!
Cool saying though, one worthy to adopt.
Ya must have some Viking blood in ya lad.
A.

[NEOPO]

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('FourOfSwords', 'N')EOPO, is it a coincedence that you're a fan of The Thirteen Warrior?!
Cool saying though, one worthy to adopt.
Ya must have some Viking blood in ya lad.
A.

[CrudeAwakening]

NEOPO, I'm so sorry. Life can be so whimsically cruel, and it often seems like the worst things happen to the best people. Your pain does not go unacknowledged.

[Chaparral]

Sorry to hear that NEO, you have my condolences.


At least his kids have a good uncle who knows the score.

[gg3]

Yeah, Neo, my heart goes out to you. Love matters more than anything. Important for people around here, many of whom sometimes seem to espouse a loveless value system, to understand that.

And as Chaparral said, his kids have a good uncle who knows the score. You can grieve and let the tears cleanse your heart, and then you can carry his spirit forward and rise to the challenge.

[basil_hayden]

My sincerest condolences Neopo.

Take the time to put it in perspective.

[Aaron]

And that, ladies & gentlemen, is how you do that.

I am sorry for your loss, & I celebrate your love for this man.

As it should be.

[killJOY]

I can see your suffering:

I've been watching one of my students grieve over the loss of his little brother. After the accident, he came back to class nearly doubled over in pain. Yet he's continuing on.

So I can see it.

[Newsseeker]

The Thirteenth Warrior has a way of dealing with the departed that is comforting. A good friend of mine just died and the funeral was Friday. Life is a precious fleeting thing but the words from the Thirteenth Warrior bring things into focus where we can see a chain stretching back into the very beginning. Following our deaths this chain will continue and during our lives we hold fast to it. The undiscovered country in the words of the bard....

[mmasters]

Sorry for your loss

[FourOfSwords]

NEOPO you made a very poignant statement: 'It is the most grievous pain I have ever felt even though I have watched so many of my people pass on, nothing so far compares to the pain of this loss'.
That is a very heartfelt emotion. As a human being we all feel the loss of anyone who is very close to us. Although I do not know you face to face, as one human being to another I do feel your loss. This is what makes us human, that we can empathise with others, feel their love and pain.
If I may, I'd like to tell you of my father who is dying, and who I used to hold many grudges against when I was younger. Within this year, he will be dead, I can't change that. He is an old man of nearly ninety, his body is failing him terribly, yet his mind is as young and lucid as it was when he was my age. When I look into his eyes, I see a mind that is trapped in a cage, a cage that will soon no longer exist, and then he will be free. I've done my crying, and I wait for him to pass. I love him now, and I will always love him, as you do your brother.
You will find peace NEOPO.

[mercurygirl]

Wishing you hope in the midst of sorrow, comfort in the midst of pain.

MG

[WildRose]

I can hardly find the words to say how sorry I am for your loss, NEOPO. What you have written for your brother, though, is beautiful.

Love between brothers can be very deep. I see this in my own two sons, who are teenagers now and I don't know if they've ever pondered what it would be like to lose their brother. They sometimes get so angry with each other, say they can't wait until they're not living in the same house, and yet they are so goofy together and let loose with each other in a way they can't with anyone else. I know the love they share is deep.

You are absolutely right, NEO, that it's so important we tell those we love how precious they are to us, often, as we can't know how many times we'll get to do so and which time will be our last. Your pain, which you articulate so well, is such a strong reminder.

Peace, Rose.

[NEOPO]

Thank you all so much for the kind words.

I feel the need to post more.

Today is day 3 and by my belief it is the day his spirit will realize what has happened and begin its journey.

My thoughts align more with the Buddhist beliefs then anything and so yes in my heart/mind I urge my brothers spirit to go to the blue light unless perhaps he desires to return to the material worlds or now knows something that only those who pass can know.

I look back at his life and recall all the challenges that he faced.
Some self imposed but most imposed upon him by this world.
His was not an easy path to tread, the bravest path to think for oneself and believe in little or nothing but self all the while having many things torn away.

I was worried as in our theosophical conversations of which we had many he always espoused his disdain for most religions and their thoughts on the afterlife.
At one point I was sure he was an atheist.
It was pointed out to me that he had a myspace page and when I went there I noticed as religion he had input Agnostic.

The movie "what dreams may come" is an example of devachan or "angel place" and if you watch it you will see what we think is the true power of belief.
It is as you believe it is until a time when you see through the illusion and then your journey truly begins.

If he believes he is a hell then when I pass I will go there and comfort him until he dispells the illusion and we can travel on together.
That one word, so simple, AGNOSTIC tells me that he will not stick around, he is not lost and his journey back to the beginning has only just begun.
Oh my brother, what dreams may come.

We believe but we do not subscribe to any one way.
We see truth in all of them yet we could also see the manipulative hand of mankind having its way with perhaps all religions/faiths/beliefs so ultimately we both took what seemed true and rejected the rest.

And now I play a song for myself, a lamentation of the trials and tribulations we all must go through yet in the end we still believe and no manipulation, no great lie, NOTHING will ever take that away.

Disturbed - Prayer

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('', 'A')nother dream that will never come true
Just to compliment your sorrow
Another life that I've taken from you
A gift to add on to your pain and suffering
Another truth you can never believe
Has crippled you completely
All the cries you're beginning to hear
Trapped in your mind, and the sound is deafening

Let me enlighten you
This is the way I pray

Living just isn't hard enough
Burn me alive, inside
Living my life's not hard enough
Take everything away

Another nightmare about to come true
Will manifest tomorrow
Another love that I've taken from you
Lost in time, on the edge of suffering
Another taste of the evil I breed
Will level you completely
Bring to life everything that you fear
Live in the dark, and the world is threatening

Let me enlighten you
This is the way i pray

Return to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, leave me no one
Turn to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, cast aside
Return to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, leave me no one
Turn to me, return to me, return to me, you've made me turn away

Living just isn't hard enough
Burn me alive, inside
Living my life's not hard enough,
They take everything from you

[PrairieMule]

NEOPO-

Thirty years is way to short for anyone but I'd like to hear where life took him in those 30 years. What kind of music did he listen to? Did he travel? Things like that. Tell us more about what he was like.

I'm all ears.

[blukatzen]

Just finding out about this now Neopo,
my condolences to you and your kin on the passing of your brother, a continuance of his life's journey, now into far-faring.

May Timothy be happily reunited with those of his ancestors, who for so long, unknownst to him, gave him support and strength, indeed, gave him life. Now, in turn, he will give those in this life, strength and support, for he sits in the halls of his ancestors.

Neopo, be a good uncle and "foster father" to your brother's children, as I know you are to your own children. That's the best thing to be done.

Cattle die, kinsmen die,
you yourself must likewise die,
but word-fame never dies
for him who achieves it well.

Cattle die, kinsmen die,
you yourself must likewise die,
but one thing that never dies
the verdict on each man dead.

HAVAMAL..76, 77.

We'll lift a horn to his passing and memory tonight.

[Zardoz]

Permit me to add my condolences. Your words prove how much he meant to you.

Just thirty years old, three children, and what sounds like a sudden, unexpected passing. This is terribly sad.

[seahorse]

Hi Neopo,

I enjoy your presence here. You add a lot. Its funny how we can all form "relationships" on the net without ever seeing each other, only knowing each other's hearts and minds by the essence of what they post. I've learned that I know as much or more about the inner self of people here than I do many people I interact with in person on a daily basis, for here people can safely post their innermost thoughts without fear of being judged, weighed down or inhibited by the baggage of where they've been in life, what they look like, what they do. Here, we can be ourselves by letting our "self" come out, uninhibited. Which brings me back to where I started - I have come to enjoy your presence here, and, I and everyone else here, feel for your loss.