The Peak is at hand, whether it's right now or 5-10 years away. Functionally it makes little difference to me. With the peak comes the destruction of my culture. Society will experience a massive upheaval marked by poverty and possible starvation for myself and all of my family and friends, and probably everybody I have ever worked with or gone to school with.
I may end up struggling with my neighbors over warm clothing, which I have, but which they mostly lack.
I know my culture is based on greed and the manufactured needs that our economy needs to grow. I know that my culture has some bad features that I wish it didn't have. Nevertheless, it's the only one I know.
The concept of cooperative effort to ensure group survival is totally foreign to me, and I'm not sure I trust my fellow man to work with me rather than take any advantage they can over me. It's just a part of our culture, you know? We seek advantage over others through manipulation and a general lack of concern for others.
I believe that the massive upheavals heading towards us are going to be horrible and without merit of any kind. I also believe that there is nothing I can do to preserve my culture. Maybe it's better that it dies out with my generation.
I foresee a future of living in a thrown-together shack somewhere cold and rainy with very little in the way of material comforts such as a comfortable bed or light in the darkness. I'm not used to living that way.
I look around at other people who are not aware of the coming times and I see that many of them are happy and that they enjoy their days. I would like to rejoin them, but find myself unable to do so. I doubt that things will get any better than they are today. It's my opinion that we're at the very height of the good things that civilization here in the US provides.
The price for the good times we now enjoy is that we force millions of people in third world nations to put their children to work for us, strip them of their natural resources, pollute their water and land, and bomb into submission those who would oppose us. All in the name of a cheap pair of sneakers or a little more MSG for our food.
Soon, we will join the ranks of the oppressed and poor. Those in power in the US will put their collective boot on our collective necks and begin to lean ever more heavily on us. They have had much practice at this and are unaccountable for their actions.
We will suffer, sicken, and then we will give up the ghost. Nasty, brutish, and short. Camelot falls.
Now, I look out the window and see people driving to work and stopping at Circuit City to pick up a cheap DVD player so they can catch up on old episodes of Friends. I'm unable to resolve this contradiction. How am I so despondent while my neighbors are so upbeat and sailing along without a care on this matter?
Is it that I'm just a fucking lunatic? Could we be wrong? Am I just buying in to a weird little cult of people who want to see the system go down? Seriously, I feel like I'm losing my mind. Am I just like one of those guys who thought the spaceship was coming so I need to put on my purple track suit and load up on quarters for the journey to Alpha Centauri?




