by cmlek » Sun 17 Sep 2006, 02:31:50
On Sept. 11, I was on Purdue campus, heading to class, and realized there were no planes in the sky. On the way to the physics building, I ran into a friend and remarked on how weird that was, only to be told that terrorists had flown into and toppled one of the two buildings.
I felt nothing.
Classes were cancelled, and I went around helping said friend organize people on campus to go give blood. I watched the whole thing on TV that night, and the only time I felt people's pain was while listening to a thousand collective throats scream as the 2nd tower came down.
I mostly felt glad that day to be one of the Have Nots that no one cares enough to bother with. To some extent I'm sure people realize, and accept the risks of, the fact that they work in a famous place, and that makes them a target, but they're just peons like me and they never asked for this to happen. These are facts - what am I supposed to feel?
I couldn't watch TV for months afterward, because there was no news on that didn't pertain to rehashing the event. (Yay bbc.co.uk!) I never trusted that our government would "get it right" and either fix the situation or punish its transgressors, but I'm appalled speechless by how terribly far they've gone. But patriotism, ... that's a problem. I have a terribly negative association with that word. Bush and friends are Patriots, there's the Patriot Act, anyone who says "stop buying foreign oil" doesn't support the troops and is NOT a patriot. I don't like patriotism - it makes people act stupid, it seems. I believe that both parties are there to give us the illusion we have a choice and a hand in government, which we don't. Thusly, every time I hear the hippies and the Boomers talking about changing something, I *want* *to* *know* *how*. Protests haven't worked since Viet-frickin-nam. Changing a law or two in a massively corrupt structure accomplishes nothing your Masters don't want/can't already get around. So *HOW* are you going to fix things? I *want* to help, but I want *Something* *That* *Works*. (And before you say it, yes, I vote, as much of a waste as it sometimes seems.)
Corporations kick me around, adults look down on us, and now you spit on me. I don't feel anything. Its oversentimentalized for someone else's gain, and I have better things to do than be milked with anyone else. To end this ramble, I don't have any patriotism. I have loyalty - to my family, my friends, my little community, and my geographical area. My efforts go to help us, here, now and later.
I value the ideas you've shown me on this site so far, Pops. What would you have me doing differently?
Peace,
Melissa