by BO » Mon 30 Jan 2006, 14:52:16
I almost never cry, my wife tells me I should, that its good stress relief. I have mostly convinced her that Petro-Collapse will be the real deal, but she still thinks of everything in terms of "Business as usual" in the future. We have a 7 week old daughter, (I am trying to convince her that we shouldn't have any more.) She talks about private versus public schools, I tell her we must home school, period.
I was an accountant by occupation, last July, when I found out about PO, I had suspicions something was wrong on the resources front before that though. After thourough investigation: LATOC, Kunstler, Lundberg, Simmons, Ruppert, etc., I subscribed to the doomer scenario and began preparing.
In September I sold my practice, and put the townhome we had just bought in June on the market. We moved near downtown Delray Beach, (walking, biking distance), near a working rail system, and several farmers markets, took a job on a produce and tree farm, doing private accounting.
I originally thought we would have several years to prepare, now I am not so sure. We are thinking about moving back to Northeast, near family. I think Florida will be an ugly place to be in a few years.
All of it makes me want to cry, even though I can't. I try to tell family and freinds about it, and they just get mad, "I don't want to talk about it!" they shout.
Every day seems a little bit more like the "Matrix", it reminds me of the movie line:
$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('', 'C')ypher: You know, I know this steak doesn't exist. I know that when I put it in my mouth, the Matrix is telling my brain that it is juicy, and delicious. After nine years, you know what I realise? Ignorance is bliss.
I am grateful for the knowledge necessary for preparation, but sometimes yearn for the days of blissful ignorance