I guess I just don't know how to position myself for the future. Given that PO is going to happen, I don't know whether the future will be a rat race for fewer and fewer jobs in the framework of something resembling to current world economy, or if the three horsemen of the apocalyse will just come charging in. In the former case I guess I should prepare myself to jostle for a good job position; in the latter case I should look more closely at survival techniques.
If I'm indecisive I ought to be preparing for both situations but I'm more like preparing for neither...
Do you know the kind of people that look upon Peak Oil as some kind of Apocalyse and are just living their lives like zombies, doing nothing, waiting for their salvation? I'll fit right in with them now!
Somebody mentioned that in 2 years of research I ought to have learnt a few things about post-PO survival. Well, not really--I spent all my time just reading about the bad news. I don't really feel interested in preparing myself for the shit that will happen if all these bad news are true.
Why do I feel downright HAPPY these days when I read another PO-related piece of bad news? Because it proves that I'm right and the people around me are wrong? Maybe I'm just glad that I'll be spared the chore of killing myself! If I'm so happy to die why don't I go now??
(don't worry, I'm still here... I've trained myself such that even if I can't find a reason to live, I have to find a compelling immediate reason to die as a reason for suicide... like, starvation, loss of housing or some such serious deterioration of living condition, with no relief in sight)
What I need is something that can give me a good kick so I can get off my ass and start DOING something! I have a plan...
Get in touch with the Hong Kong PO clan
If there is none, find an appropriate place to start one (e.g. a Greenpeace branch meeting, an appropriate society in a university...)
Once I get a bunch of like-minded people together that are inclined to actually DO something about the coming crisis, they can help me get back into gear to do stuff.
But it's taking so long for me to get started!!
Also need to find a job in the meantime and that is going at a snail's pace, like maybe half a job application per day.
