by MD » Tue 16 Jan 2018, 18:40:15
$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('Newfie', '')$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('baha', 'I') have been anti-social all my life. I have never felt like part of a group. I have no patience with stupidity and usually just walk away.
I have no kids, never been to a school open house, and have always avoided my neighbors. My need for self-reliance makes it hard for me to even admit there is a reason to take people inside my circle, so I don't. And the last thing I want to do is admit I need help. Even when I do.
My experience with others is they recognize my capabilities and then want me to help them. I don't want to do that either. I feel I'm being taken advantage of. Because others find it so easy to ask for help and I find it so offensive.
As I've said before my one guaranteed emotional release is to wander off into the woods. I have only met maybe two people who feel that way as strongly as I do...I married one of them.
The shallow opinions and lack of insight most people have just puts me off. I don't even bother to engage because they think I'm crazy. By modern standards I am.
I am not losing my organic social connections because I never had any. Except with Mother Nature. I prefer to be alone.
The tenuous connection I have with the folks here is as good as I get. I don't get involved in most discussions because I just don't care. And yet I respect the people here more than most idiots I meet in the real world. At least we are not hiding from whatever reality is being discussed.
And I am using you as a sounding board. I am really just trying to understand myself. What should I do next to keep myself engaged?
Thank you for your honesty and support.
I have a lot in common with that. I’ve always had difficulties with people. I’ve tried hard through my life to accomdate but eventually came to the conclusion that, yeah, in general they really are THAT stupid. For some years I was involved with a small religious organization, Secretary, Treasurer, President. Other folks would go to Sunday service and emerge refreshed. I’d emerge drained. This was on average a very well educated and intellectual group. By and large they were specialist with extremely narrow world views. Nice well meaning folks. Clueless. Depressing.
wow. nothing to say. except maybe a happy moment of not being alone?