by PenultimateManStanding » Mon 03 Dec 2007, 22:25:32
$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('WildRose', 'I') remember playing a similar game with the Brownies and Girl Guides at one of our winter camps. We went outside on a cold evening, around 10 o'clock. It was probably about -20 C, but calm, with beautiful moonlight. The snow was a few feet deep, and I don't think the girls even needed flashlights, really. It was fabulous, running in and out of the trees, "catching" each other with the beam of our flashlights, breathing cool air and laughing every time we stumbled in the deep snowy drifts. It was the highlight of our weekend.
Childhood memories are special. They are our link to a world so different from our own. Marcel Proust made them famous in
Remembrance Of Things Past. I've recovered thousands of them around three o'clock in the morning from time to time. Half awake, half asleep, they come without being called. If you call for them they don't come. They just show up like will-o-the-wisps. I learned to be quiet in my mind and watch them emerge and it only seems to work in the witching hours. Memories that don't have the taint of present-day will and consciousness. I've been doing this for years now and usually it's an "old friend" memory that I already recalled which will come to visit me again, but sometimes it's something new. I had a couple of those last night amid the flood of old friends. I'm careful to be quiet, as I said, but that also means being emotionally quiescent because these memories will be accompanied with their associated emotional states from long ago if I practice this delicate discipline. This whole endeavor grows in strength when you learn how it works. Sometimes the memories and emotions are bad, sometimes they are good. But it's just the recovery of them that I am after. I'll take the good with the bad, that's fine with me. It's an unexpected way to complete the circle. I've had intimations of this throughout my thirties and forties, but in the last few years it has become profound to me and I welcome waking up at three in the morning.