[Sixstrings]

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('IslandCrow', 'I') am living and caring for someone with a neuro-degenerative disease. No known medication available...eventual death, but path to that point totally unsure.

As this goes on I find myself more dominated by the condition, and less able to focus on other things like planning for PO.

[SeaGypsy]

At various times in my youth I was diagnosed sociopathic (15 y.o. rebel), schizophrenic (too many weird plant substances after taking Carlos Castenada a bit too seriously), petit mal epileptic (massive datura overdose), paranoid psychotic (mushrooms & too much weed), then finally came down with a deadly serious depression (too much reality combined with doctor drugs).
My personal recomendation is not to take anything you can't grow or find in the wild.
about 90% of modern medicines are either plant derived or synthesized copies of plant chemicals. Of course the asprin company don't tell you willow bark tea is the same thing etc.
I went through some extremely bad reactions to psyche medications, far worse than those states described before depression set in. I once went over 90 days with no sleep at all, this on nothing other than doctor drugs. I was holding a vigil on myself, preventing myself from sleeping for fear I would kill myself if I relaxed.
Cleaning up the body is possible even when the spirit and mind are seemingly lost.
Detox is a good thing. So is fruit, so are vegetables.
Bravo Ludi.
May you acheive drug free equilibrium.

[Ludi]

Thank you, SeaGypsy. Things are up and down, mostly ok. I'm fortunate to not have a "normal" life.

[Ludi]

Thank you, threadbear.

[Kristen]

I've been diagnosed with manic depression, social anxiety, and panic disorder, but I don't think in my 15 years of medication (on and off) any of those things have been cured, just brushed into my subconcious to gather mold and make me more unhealthy in the future. I can't recall the exact brain developments, from age ten until twenty-five, but Shire and Phizer can only imagine what sort of brain chemistry I have now. the only thing I can say for sure is I haven't grown a tail

I'm a sad person, yes, but is empathy that is to blame for that. There are those who can transfer or displace those negative feeling onto others, but that would be much too cowardly of me. I've always been hypersensative to how I treat others, for to hurt another would mean a much more immense amount of guilt to process later. Also i think my brain is wired in a way that a type of water faucet always set to poor at the highest level exists.

I had a creative upbringing. I was only two when my Mother divorced my father and she soon met a woman. She stayed with that woman until I was about nine and became a party animal, bringing home different father figures of sorts until she got pregnant from one of the encounters. She soon after met my current Stepdad who does not know of her lesbian ordeal. I don't blame my parents for my sadness, I blame the humiliation displaced onto me who only thought of the unnaturalness of two mothers, and not the love and support that existed.

Medication withdrawal can be much more horrible then the diagnosis, Antidepressant being the longest lasting an most unpleasant (Even though they say it is isn't addicting). Imagine being given a little electric shock in your brain every ten minutes combined with a sort of pulse noise/sound for a month. Benzodiazephenes (Xanax, Valium, Klonopin), if taken regularly for two weeks, withdrawal effects happen even with the damn pills because of tolerance. Quitting them cold turkey means you have about three days worth of "a deer in headlights" kind of feeling before you brain chemistry reharmonizes itself. Also don't expect good sleep for about a week.

For me, there is a hole, or void to fill, but trust me! No copious amount of drugs, sex or love will ever do it, only reading peakoil,com can save you.

[davep]

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('Kristen', 'I')'ve been diagnosed with manic depression, social anxiety, and panic disorder, but I don't think in my 15 years of medication (on and off) any of those things have been cured, just brushed into my subconcious to gather mold and make me more unhealthy in the future. I can't recall the exact brain developments, from age ten until twenty-five, but Shire and Phizer can only imagine what sort of brain chemistry I have now. the only thing I can say for sure is I haven't grown a tail

I'm a sad person, yes, but is empathy that is to blame for that. There are those who can transfer or displace those negative feeling onto others, but that would be much too cowardly of me. I've always been hypersensative to how I treat others, for to hurt another would mean a much more immense amount of guilt to process later. Also i think my brain is wired in a way that a type of water faucet always set to poor at the highest level exists.

I had a creative upbringing. I was only two when my Mother divorced my father and she soon met a woman. She stayed with that woman until I was about nine and became a party animal, bringing home different father figures of sorts until she got pregnant from one of the encounters. She soon after met my current Stepdad who does not know of her lesbian ordeal. I don't blame my parents for my sadness, I blame the humiliation displaced onto me who only thought of the unnaturalness of two mothers, and not the love and support that existed.

Medication withdrawal can be much more horrible then the diagnosis, Antidepressant being the longest lasting an most unpleasant (Even though they say it is isn't addicting). Imagine being given a little electric shock in your brain every ten minutes combined with a sort of pulse noise/sound for a month. Benzodiazephenes (Xanax, Valium, Klonopin), if taken regularly for two weeks, withdrawal effects happen even with the damn pills because of tolerance. Quitting them cold turkey means you have about three days worth of "a deer in headlights" kind of feeling before you brain chemistry reharmonizes itself. Also don't expect good sleep for about a week.

For me, there is a hole, or void to fill, but trust me! No copious amount of drugs, sex or love will ever do it, only reading peakoil,com can save you.

[Ludi]

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('davep', '
')I don't know if you've tried it, but Cognitive Behavioural Therapy is excellent for your kind of problems.

[PrestonSturges]

The main social stress for people that are mentally ill is that they can't stand to be alone and they have a hard time being around other people.

Anyone trying to get through life needs to moderate their behavior around other people and not be manipulative, aggressive, dishonest, or engage in repetitive annoying behavior.

When someone is really sick, they act as if they are in some sort of divine state of grace and can generate an endless string of excuses for stepping all over other people.

[Ludi]

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('PrestonSturges', ' ')

When someone is really sick, they act as if they are in some sort of divine state of grace and can generate an endless string of excuses for stepping all over other people.

[PrestonSturges]

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('Ludi', '')$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('PrestonSturges', ' ')

When someone is really sick, they act as if they are in some sort of divine state of grace and can generate an endless string of excuses for stepping all over other people.

[Sixstrings]

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('Kristen', 'I')'ve been diagnosed with manic depression, social anxiety, and panic disorder, but I don't think in my 15 years of medication (on and off) any of those things have been cured,

[Ayame]

I have a mental illness of some sort but the pdocs I've seen have had a hard time putting their finger on it. It's not pyschosis or schizophrenia (even though my two aunts have schizophrenia). I've been diagnosed with personality disorder (because the usual drugs didn't work on me) but what this means is beyond me, something like my personailty is wrong for western society. I went to hospital last year and it's not a place I'd want to go back to. There was no therapy, just a place to put you so you can be watched and controlled. No healing there unless you count drug regimens (which obviously didn't work for me). Currently doing better trying to 'live for the moment' and stop worrying about the future.

[Ayame]

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('Sixstrings', ' ')But it's been interesting though, over the years, seeing something that used to be rare become so very common now.

[PrestonSturges]

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('Ayame', 'I') have a mental illness of some sort but the pdocs I've seen have had a hard time putting their finger on it. It's not pyschosis or schizophrenia (even though my two aunts have schizophrenia). I've been diagnosed with personality disorder (because the usual drugs didn't work on me) but what this means is beyond me, something like my personailty is wrong for western society. I went to hospital last year and it's not a place I'd want to go back to. There was no therapy, just a place to put you so you can be watched and controlled. No healing there unless you count drug regimens (which obviously didn't work for me). Currently doing better trying to 'live for the moment' and stop worrying about the future.

[Narz]

I'm disgusted sometimes by my own inertia. But it's hard (for me) to be motivated in this society. I don't have anyone in my day to day real life I'd consider inspiring. Well except my daughter but I'm the one supposed to be leading her.

[Kristen]

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('davep', '')$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('Kristen', 'I')'ve been diagnosed with manic depression, social anxiety, and panic disorder, but I don't think in my 15 years of medication (on and off) any of those things have been cured, just brushed into my subconcious to gather mold and make me more unhealthy in the future. I can't recall the exact brain developments, from age ten until twenty-five, but Shire and Phizer can only imagine what sort of brain chemistry I have now. the only thing I can say for sure is I haven't grown a tail

I'm a sad person, yes, but is empathy that is to blame for that. There are those who can transfer or displace those negative feeling onto others, but that would be much too cowardly of me. I've always been hypersensative to how I treat others, for to hurt another would mean a much more immense amount of guilt to process later. Also i think my brain is wired in a way that a type of water faucet always set to poor at the highest level exists.

I had a creative upbringing. I was only two when my Mother divorced my father and she soon met a woman. She stayed with that woman until I was about nine and became a party animal, bringing home different father figures of sorts until she got pregnant from one of the encounters. She soon after met my current Stepdad who does not know of her lesbian ordeal. I don't blame my parents for my sadness, I blame the humiliation displaced onto me who only thought of the unnaturalness of two mothers, and not the love and support that existed.

Medication withdrawal can be much more horrible then the diagnosis, Antidepressant being the longest lasting an most unpleasant (Even though they say it is isn't addicting). Imagine being given a little electric shock in your brain every ten minutes combined with a sort of pulse noise/sound for a month. Benzodiazephenes (Xanax, Valium, Klonopin), if taken regularly for two weeks, withdrawal effects happen even with the damn pills because of tolerance. Quitting them cold turkey means you have about three days worth of "a deer in headlights" kind of feeling before you brain chemistry reharmonizes itself. Also don't expect good sleep for about a week.

For me, there is a hole, or void to fill, but trust me! No copious amount of drugs, sex or love will ever do it, only reading peakoil,com can save you.

[Kristen]

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('Ayame', 'I') have a mental illness of some sort but the pdocs I've seen have had a hard time putting their finger on it. It's not pyschosis or schizophrenia (even though my two aunts have schizophrenia). I've been diagnosed with personality disorder (because the usual drugs didn't work on me) but what this means is beyond me, something like my personailty is wrong for western society. I went to hospital last year and it's not a place I'd want to go back to. There was no therapy, just a place to put you so you can be watched and controlled. No healing there unless you count drug regimens (which obviously didn't work for me). Currently doing better trying to 'live for the moment' and stop worrying about the future.

[Ludi]

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('Kristen', '
')If I can ever trust a therapist, I'll look into that. The thing is, I've been in therapy. It sort of feels like paying someone to be nice to you.

I did learn self-hypnosis 5 years ago, from a psychotherapist.

[SeaGypsy]

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('Ayame', '')$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('Sixstrings', ' ')But it's been interesting though, over the years, seeing something that used to be rare become so very common now.

[Ludi]

$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('Kristen', 'I')'ve been diagnosed with manic depression, social anxiety, and panic disorder, but I don't think in my 15 years of medication (on and off) any of those things have been cured,