by Heineken » Sat 05 Jul 2008, 21:16:38
$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('UselessEater', 'I')'m disabled -- paralyzed from the waist down as the result of a motorcycle accident in 1984. Since about 1999-2000, I have always known that I will be completely and irretrievably Fark if even moderately dire scenarios surrounding Peak Oil come to pass. If the worst situations occur, then... it's all she wrote. No question about it. Time to kiss-your-gimp-ass-goodbye.
People are funny when it comes to the disabled -- they are always disingenuously encouraging. On these forums, they happily chirp on about an inevitable human die-off in which the total global population is reduced to Earth's natural carrying capacity. But now, as they are talking to a disabled person in this thread, they will feed him/her all sorts of positive baloney about how survival is possible if you just try a little bit.
I know it's horseshit.
But I don't really feel too badly about my own situation either. To tell you the truth, it doesn't matter whether I live or die even now in times of easy living. If times get really bad and people start to go without food and necessary things - the ranks of the disabled will suddenly explode, because people are generally rather frail, and there are many, many ways to be disabled in life.
Once there are many millions of disabled people, being a disabled person will not warrant the slightest sympathy (or extra energy expenditure) whatsoever. There will simply be far too many of them to bother about.
And that is, of course, the law of the natural world - the sick, the weak and the incompetent die-off quickly. They will die-off not only because of the lack of modern amenities; they will die-off because the able-bodied WANT them to die off! It's a matter of biology. Maybe Americans 10 - 15 years hence will not use the same term the Nazi's did -- "Useless Eater" -- but the resentment towards anyone unable to pull his/her own weight will only grow in times when even the best of us have trouble pulling weight that gasoline once hauled.
I've written probably 10 - 15 emails to different peak oil notables over the years asking them about what sort of future I, as a disabled person, could expect and prepare for.
No one has ever replied.
It's very difficult to know how to react to these comments. Perhaps one shouldn't react at all, it's such a minefield.
I feel that the sympathy, empathy, feelings, whatever, that I expressed in my earlier post were genuine because I have at least for a while been exactly where you are, although it was my arms that were useless instead of my legs. Also, I had no way of knowing whether I'd ever recover. The condition seemed intractable, and I was informed by a therapist and by considerable research that RSD is often incurable.
So I've been there, felt the bitterness, anger, hopelessness, fear, and even a final resignation to my fate. Not that I think having "been there" is a requirement for sincere commentary on this issue.
You and the OP felt compelled to say something here about your dilemmas, and some of us have felt compelled to respond. Take it or leave it.
It's good that you are so honest, but it's frightening to see what the honesty consists of.
None of us is any better than you are, and eventually we'll all be in the same battered boat, one way or another, if we aren't there already.
No matter how terrible things get, I believe that there are some people who will always be there to hold out a helping hand, when it is asked for.