by PrairieMule » Mon 01 Dec 2008, 18:49:19
$this->bbcode_second_pass_quote('seahorse2', 'T')here's an old native American saying that one can never know themself until they lose their ego through physical exhaustion. I believe this to be true. When I was younger, I tried different things for the "feather in my cap" so to speak, but I quickly learned, like anyone who tries anything that pushes themselves to the physical limits, that the reward of the challenge is that moment when the ego is gone, and one is forced to endure the frailties of their own character.
The greatest moment of personal freedom is when nothing else matters anymore but the next step. When one no longer cares about what they look like, their weight, their job, the world, the religious or political issue of the day, the color of money, whether they have money, when they no longer care about what others think, or even what they think, when life is reduced to a single moment, just simply taking another step, is the greatest moment of personal freedom. It is the closest to seeing God that man can ever come. When a person comes to that moment, losing their ego, they will want it again and again. It doesn't matter if its a 20 mile march, a 2 mile run, a triathlon. Its different distance and event for everyone.
It is a very personal moment when you can no longer hide from yourself. You can only hope that you like what you find. When you realize how frail you are, you will understand why we long for the loving embrace of others. No one makes it in life alone. To think otherwise is an ego, an illusion of a reality that doesn't exist.
I couldn't agree more with this post.
When I was 24, I went on a day hike that evolved into 2 days in the Ouacthita Mountains with no food. Two days of non stop hiking with nothing in my stomach but creek water. At night it dropped to 25 degrees.
I hallucinated some weird stuff. I talked about this a few years ago and SPG pointed out it was "Neurons Behaving Badly". The body does weird things when you are pushed past beyond the point of exaustion. There is a unforgettable single moment like seahorse described abovewhen you realize you just don't give a sh-t about the the things you thought mattered before. I yelled at God to go ahead and take me out. Then out of nowhere a thought occured to me to yell for help. Not exactly a bright light on the road to Damascus, especially after I spent the night hallucinating. Maybe it came from my subconscious. I don't know. Two hours later I was drinking hot coffee at my truck. All I know is after that day my life had more clarity. For me that day was 21,1995. Ever since then I have always found a small measure of peace and clarity from my little solo backpacking trips.
True story.
If you give a man a fish you will have kept him from hunger for a day. If you teach a man to fish he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.