by Stratovarius » Mon 15 Sep 2008, 19:26:27
Clarification: I'm f*king fed up with talking. Also this forum really pisses me off and the people in it.
So, I dunno what I'm doing here. I just realized, "Wow, my life is a piece of s*t."
I don't know what to say. Maybe tomorrow, I'll actually get something done. I have no idea what the hell it's going to be, but it's going to be something. Or maybe I'll really sit down and think long and hard. Write some options down, the tertiary steps to achieve some long-term goals, and start doing them. The day after that, I will also do something, and the day after that.
I also need to have a long talk with my dad. I think I'll do that writing down the options thing, and tell him what I want to do. He'll get angry certainly at first...but it's fine. Maybe if I just man up and be cool with him, he'll respond in the same way with time. I just need to get it in his head that I'm not a small child then maybe he'll stop treating me like one.
He might actually like the idea of me working in the oil industry. I just found out how much these people make and he would be fine with that. I think he's just worried I'll become another financial burden. He's also narcissistic and unfortunately I can't do anything about that major character flaw of his. He doesn't want me doing something (or not doing something) that would be embarrassing to tell his friends or whatever. I can't do s*t about this. I'll just have to ignore it the best I can.
If all else fails and he wants to pick a fight with me. Oh well, I'll push him aside the best I can.
Everyone on this forum is wrong. I can do this. Watch me.
This forum is wasting my precious time and I think I'm going to cull the computer as much as possible. A pathetic problem of mine, but it's a problem nonetheless that needs to be fixed. No use hiding it.
Anyway, any last words for me? Any other shitty remarks that don't really help me at all? Any trolling? Or maybe you actually have something enlightening to say considering 90% of the things said in this forum are stupid anyway. You guys suck. I really wish half the people on this forum were dead.
Here's something no ones talked about to me yet: Any idea what kind of specific trade I could learn? I'm interested. I don't know what I could possibly do though. I'm willing to learn anything if I like it and it's not going to become useless in the future.
If anyone cares, I'm still looking for an entry level job that doesn't require anything in the oil industry. Manual labor preferably but if it's being a paper-pusher or something that's fine I guess. Doubt they got any jobs like that for me anyway. I just need a little money to start me off. That's what I'm looking for.
Also, I got a WWOOF directory coming in soon for those organic farms that offer apprenticeships.
I'll have an update if anything big happens. Like me actually doing something.