[Whitefang]

I talk to myself non stop, it makes me capable of living but it is loading me with fear, doubt and focus on me,me,me. The thing on my head drains my energy, my personality turning me into a petty little tyrant who never, hardly ever let's my true nature and feelings surface.

Feels like I am a captain of a ship that is going down. When I shut up into silence I am a lot stronger, sober and able to see what must be done, very practical tool.
Reason needs to be knocked from the throne and be guided by a total knowing from where I do not know, feeling...senses....

I see around me that I am not the only one who babbles in their head of insane wants and problems.

From experience you need to be rational to handle daily affairs, world of reason and body as a unit that holds standard perception, the description holding our world in place.

For real speed and power, search for knowledge and the new frontier, we need more then intuition, a fine foundation or start on which to build a new tool to handle affairs.
Intuition can be enlarged and become your ally, a guide to know your personal future and prepare yourself with best strategy for the upcoming. Mold the world around you and swim with the flow.

Big deal is that our internal struggle is fought between your body housing your mind and your spirit, your energy body linked with everything but alone in a dangerous environment.

This world we can speak of, social and we know the workings, is a training ground for each to accumulate enough energy to get our magic going, link with the spirit.

The trick is to shut up internal dialogue, see energy direct and keep living with sober reasoning and use will, power from the belly to hunt for the unknown.
Then set up dreaming other worlds as real as this one, earn energy by living impeccable and see how far you can travel your destiny.

It sounds easy, and it would be, unfortunately time is against us and so is our personality crippled with fear, our first enemy.
Great thing is the near death of world society to motivate us to get our true nature going.

Only necessity will get us into gear for real change instead cheap talk like the above and below
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A need to move back to nature might give us control again over ourselves, no more social contract and giving away power to others. PO, Bushco, world order, climate, hunger are going to be the best thing that happened to us this millenia.
If you are with the surviving lot.