Additionally, I am in one of the most dependent places on the automobile in the world, I am in a bit of trouble with the law, and right now it's over 100 degrees outside at NIGHT, and it's RAINING. I feel as if circumstance has taken over my life and I have no say in how things go.
I thought that peak oil was a big problem, when I first read of it over a year ago.. I've watched the crisis develop since 2003, so there's no doubt in my mind what's going on here.
I have also watched weather patterns start to get VERY strange. I was browsing around last night and read some stuff about climate manipulation and chemtrails/weird colors in the sky being man made.. I feel as if I am watching climate change in motion. For example, with the rain today.. the sky was clear this morning. Then all of a sudden everything is soaked, the heaviest deluge of rain falls from the sky I've ever witnessed happen so drastically.
People are progressively getting bitchier and meaner and desperate here. It seems as if the number of illegals in the area is increasing exponentially, and to top it all off I am in enough debt that I don't think that it's possible for me to pay it off.
I feel very tied down, and I have honestly been considering selling all my possessions but essentials and going nomad/jedi and following the ways of the force or something. Objective decision making in regards to crisis has all but failed me, and its very painful to watch others go down the same path in this 'consensus trance.'
All this stuff, though it pretty much sucks, isn't what is really getting me down. Peak Oil is becoming mainstream now, theres articles and such on it everywhere... its the reaction I see in people. There is this encoded individualism in people.. they somehow think they will solve these problems on their own. They all plan on cashing out and going home, or hunkering down in their bunker of an apartment or something.. but nowhere is anyone saying 'well what can WE do to fix it?'
all i see is this immediate desire of people to remove themselves from the situation. obviously, there really is nowhere to hide from something like this.. and the reaction is very primitive. very violent. they get 'cowboy' about it.. if you know what i mean. the more powerful the persons position, the more rebellious their stance. the people who are actually interested in working on a solution are the people in the same position as me, people who are powerless to change things.
i talked with a coworker about the subject earlier today, and she talked about the majority of people out there who live paycheck to paycheck (like we do) who barely make it through life as is, who are powerless to start putting up solar or growing vegetables in our apartment complexes and who dont really have the money or prospects to just bounce out and go to a rural area. i think the demographic is urban poor? not really sure, but.. the conversation led to the fact that if there was ANY crisis, there are millions out here in the phoenix area who would have no chance of making ends meet. like kunstler says, without air conditioning tensions escalate wildly here, ESPECIALLY with all the different ethnicities around.
i cant see anything less than riots and looting just destroying everything in a 112 degree summer rage. i cannot even IMAGINE what would happen if there was rationing of gasoline in the hot arizona sun.
im reaching my wits end here. the wise man in me is thinking that i should wait a little bit, maybe an opportunity for an easy way out might present itself, that if i keep on my job ill be able to work up a bit of savings..
but theres this nagging voice inside my head that is telling me every day 'get out get out get out get out get out' even though id flake on my lease and a warrant would be issued for my arrest etc etc etc..
i know there will be a day when i CANT get out of here.
what would happen to the people in jail and in prison when the supply crunch begins? if the lights go out, how could they let anyone out? all the records are computerized. the other day i saw a couple of mexicans walk into circle k, grab a couple of 30 packs of beer each, and walk out.. clerk yelling at them. stuff like this is getting way too common.
liquidity is drying up, lawlessness seems to be setting in, and theres this big gap set for the end of this year... and im thinking the only way it will be filled is demand destruction.
...anyone need someone to help run their organic farm?








